

Empire strikes back
Terminator II
Star Trek II
Batman the dark knight
Indiana Jones and the last crusade
James Bond from Russia with love
The good, the bad and the ugly
aliens
Paddington 2
Toy story 2
Avengers endgame
Top gun maverick
Blade Runner 2049
Mad max fury road
Your situation sounds like in need of serious hands on action and it will only drain people’s empathy and sympathy who can only help you remotely if you continue without getting close help.
Get witnesses.
Have people stay in your apartment. They’ll be able to tell what you’re going through.
Family members, friends, maybe even someone who does volunteer work.